Friday, December 8, 2023

 The Intricate Loop of A Relationship

Wrote this on the 13th of the Happy Hearts' Day (popularly known Valentine's Day) due the next day. And yup, my timing is intentional, kasi nga nauuso ang pangungutya sa mga desperadang kabitenya raw. Sa ganang akin, gusto ko palagi silang bigyan ng decency because they remain to be human beings na naliligaw lang ng landas. "There is no sin big enough not to be forgiven." 

i was merely eight (8) years old then, but i already knew how to appreciate physical appearances in those times when it was not yet as rampant as now. i do not exactly know why, but i felt like i was ahead, so much ahead, of everybody else's time back then like, i knew i had someone out there regardless how he looks. Going back now, i greatly think i was only romanticizing the idea because the truth has always been with me - that my focus of study will be regarding relationships, friendships included, of course. 

Every kind of broken relationship every time brings me pain for everyone involved. For a time, especially during the early part of my marriage break up, my first thought was that it has something to do with my woundedness and disappointment of a shattered dream. Now it is very clear to me that it has got nothing to do with any of that. Sharing with you the clarity of my understanding as an effect of my reading last December 2023. 

To quote:

    KARMIC RELATIONSHIPS Versus HIGHER-LOVING RELATIONSHIPS

    "Have you ever dated someone and thought they were the ONE but in the end, it didn't work out?

     You would be surprised to know how many people confuse karmic relationships with finding the             ONE, their twin-flame or soulmate (as Love is a soul thing). This happened to me more than once         and it was heart breaking (every time) to say the least.

     It all starts with this strong and passionate attraction between two (2) people.

     They fall madly in love, and everything seems to be out of the ordinary. But after a while, things start      to go south, an avalanche of pain and drama engulfs the relationship and what once seemed like a         fairytale has turned into a nightmare.

     Karmic Relationships

     Everyone has a certain frequency (the vibratory oscillation rate of the atomic and sub-atomic                 particles in your field) which ranges between 50 - 150 Ghz. Frequency is extremely important                 because of the Law of Resonance which states that: depending on the frequency you have, you will        resonate with people, places, times, things, and events that have similar (if not identical) frequency.

     Two (2) people do not get together and stay together unless they have the same or very similar                 frequency. 

     Karmic relationships are relationships in which the frequency of karmic imprints become the                 determining factor that attracts two (2) people and later create the dysfunctional relationship                 dynamics that later sabotage the relationship."

Written by a male writer, i suppose, this totally got me as my interest lies heavily on the logical side of my brain, to balance out the heaviness of my right side that brought me so much pain as i went through all those "hell".

The writer's explanation of the intricacy of the karmic loop in relationships does not however, end there. i intentionally made this pause for a little while to make sure that the general idea of break ups is basically about the choice of energy which is the main factor that is involved in the creation of a frequency.  

For quite some time now, the main drive of advocacy has been about raising our frequency through our vibrational modality which primarily involves our energy choice. But it has unfortunately not gotten that much of our people's attention, especially in this part of the planet, because the seeming focus of attention is how to get rich, popular, and/or powerful. Most prayers consist of those. Trust me.

To continue:

     There are numerous factors that determine your relationship frequency, but one of the most                     influential factors are karmic imprints and the emotional pain body. If you look closely, you'll realize      that people who are in a relationship usually are playing opposite sides of the karmic imprint                 spectrum.

     Polarity-based Attraction

     Let's say that you have karmic imprints of not being worthy of love. Based on the frequency of this         karmic imprint, you will most likely attract a person who subconsciously believes s/he is incapable         of giving love or opening his/her heart chakra a.k.a. energy center.

Both the karmic relationship and polarity-based attraction are merely temporary attraction based merely on feelings at and of the moment which are not definite by nature. Wala dapat ikinababahala tungkol dito lalo na't pabagu-bago naman ang emosyon. Why does it bring so much chaos to people concerned, especially in a triangular set up?  

"Evil is whatever distracts." - Franz Kafka

Marriage happens when two (2) people agree to do so, for varying reasons. They make a vow to stay true, or maybe not, but regardless they try their best to stay together in sickness (including mental and emotional, not only physical) and in health, which is the ideal. 

For a certain period of time everything seemed alright. Until one uneventful day when a distraction must come in between them to stir their otherwise calm situation, which actually was just a test to see how they cope, but they were challenged big by: will they give in and break away or choose to stay? Dito na nagkakaiba ang desisyon ng bawat-isa sa isang mag-asawa. We cannot control how people think. We can only control our own self. 

If one is distracted by someone whose main agendum probably is to destruct the marriage vows of a couple, then walang magagawa ang isang maiiiwan dahil hindi naman n'ya hawak ang pag-iisip ng umalis na asawa. Ang tanging maiiwan sa kanya ay ang gawin ang nararapat n'yang gawin na naaayon sa moralidad o tamang kaisipan ng isang matinong tao. 

"Evil is whatever distracts." Huwag na huwag kang sumama sa pagtalon nila sa kung saan man nila gustong mahulog o pumunta. Create your own path no matter how hard. You have loved ones who are looking up to you for inspiration. Never fail them. For what is love without sacrifice. 

In this New Age, so they say, i still maintain my otherwise conventional thinking. i am happy to continue to be. Why so? i have tried as much as i could to learn, re-learn and muster (believe you me, ang daaami-dami ko na ring in-unlearn!) important things not just to carry me through but most importantly to raise my vibration and up my frequency. 

True love is found deep within each of us. Sa istoryang mag-asawa at kabitenya, balikan natin 'yong sabi nila na: "hurt people hurt." Kung tanggap mong isa ka sa kanila, well then, magpagaling ka. GOD IS THE GREATEST PHYSICIAN. "An gugma naton san Ginoo, tinikangan san kinaadman..." goes a line in one of our Church songs. Nobody is devoid of intelligence. Lahat matalino. Ang nakakabobo ay ang mga hindi kaayaayang emosyon dala karamihan ng mga sugat ng nakaraan at ang mga mala-higanteng mga pangarap na ewan lang kung para saan. "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth..." Matthew 6:19

"A person is capable to love only as much as s/he loves him/herself." 

MABUHAY KA, KAIBIGAN. 


Sunday, December 3, 2023

FOR EVERY PAINFUL ENDING, A BEAUTIFUL BEGINNING

Nawindang ang sambayanan, bata, tin-edyer, o matanda, sa pasabog ng Philippine Cinema-landia tungkol sa paghihiwalay ng labing-isang taong pagsasamahan ng Kathniel loveteam. It happened exactly three (3) days ago, because the announcement was allegedly planned to coincide with the celebration of Andres Bonifacio Day to make sure/seal the probability of the third party (Andrea, female version, the supposed culprit in the breakup) to be outrightly known, exposed, and thereby allow for them (Andrea's camp) no room for any move to deny the accusation. Everything is a craft, a business move, which must be taken advantaged of. 

Others, especially the politically-oriented and patriotically-inclined ones were disappointed why give so much importance to such "nonsense" when eto nga't lugmok na lugmok tayo at naghihikahos ang buong bayan dahil sa korapsyon ng liderato at kaitaas-taasang pamahalaan ng bayan. Bakiiit?

i am thus, taking advantage, also, of this momentous (or mishap?) event for an enlightenment and once again introduce important things as regards human facts and dynamics. Matagal ko rin munang pinagnilayan muna, lalo na ang pagsusuri sa aking sarili as i needed to make sure that i was coming from a good place, bago sulatin ang nilalaman ng loob ko. It is very difficult for a moralist to live in the midst of a chaotic world dominated by both immorality and amorality to jump into conclusions, lalo't unang-una mong isinaaalang-alang ang kapakanan ng mambabasa mo or to whoever you share your thoughts with. When you are committed to your life mission, you must likewise be completely accountable and reliable at all times.

i express my absolute admiration for Kathryn Bernardo's statement. To me, that was a perfect example of the first book ever i read, from cover to cover, after my marriage break up, entitled EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE by Daniel Goleman. So sweet and so mature a statement that was really, i must admit, for a very young lass of twenty seven (27) only and who just had one boyfriend experience at that. From her we realized maturity is not necessarily equated with age, nor maybe of experience. Pero ano nga bang malay natin sa mga sakripisyo at sakit na pinangdaanan n'ya in that eleven (11) years?

For the past year, female prominence has been started to take center stage. The problem that blocked for it to take over as fast was primarily the misconception of its context, as we are a very gender oriented society. This fact is even made more difficult by the seemingly closed or narrow-mindedness of our people for the introduction of new and more enlightening facts for human development/ascension. 

Female prominence actually means, the use of every individual's right brain (responsible for relationship/s) regardless his/her gender. It is said to be our return to our original practice as people when this world was first created. For so long a time, when the male prominence, or also called left brain dominance, has overtaken this world all it resulted to was nothing but moral degeneration and decay. 

The first to be contaminated, of course, by this phenomenon was the male specie who is generally left-brained. As for the right-brained female specie, they became mostly target of exploitation in effect of the brain imbalance. 

Maturity calls for an ending of a blame game. It is the beginning of awakening. When one is awakened, s/he chooses to understand and heal no matter how difficult the process might entail. S/he chooses to be whole; aim for completion; and find the balance of both of his/her yin and yang or masculine and feminine to find his/her true self once again. 

The third (fourth, fifth, etc., etc. kahit na pang-ilan pa 'yan) party is another story, but of the same origination. i studied Psychology to understand my aversions, because as i have said, i found difficulty in living this crazy world, that i was diagnosed to suffer from a psychosomatic ailment at the age of seventeen (17) years old, after many years of extreme loneliness and pain. True enough, "Life is difficult." so said M. Scott Peck in his first trilogy book of THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED. 

But, i must say, and this is very important: i was able to completely eradicate my aversions for people, and learned to love unconditionally, by finding God who is also in me (i would learn later). God is the greatest physician of all, i have said that time and again. God is who gives everyone of us the needed balance. As a Catholic, i am consistent in my belief that when Jesus said, "I will be in each one of you.", He made true of that promise and thus, He stayed in our heart. 

During those times that i was lost, (because i was ghosted by my best friend, my first male friend who my soul probably recognized during our first meeting that was why i felt something strange for him), my left brain (responsible for logical thinking) told me to get even, with boys! Revenge to avenge. i lost the best part of me for so long. If there was something that saved me (i did not go all out even for once!), it was that small voice inside of me which now i came to know as a "divine spark" inside us. Ito 'yong kasa-kasama natin para hindi tayo tuluyang bumigay, mapariwara, at maligaw sa tamang landas ng buhay. 

When finally my twenty three (23) year-marriage failed, i went back to reading books to find answers to my questions, which later led me to a decision that it was the culmination of all the painful years na pinagdaanan ko. Kinailangan kong balikan ang mga nakaraan ko para mapatawad ko sa puso ko ang mga tao doon, lalong-lalo na ang sarili ko. 

Each one has his/her own unique path. The one thing i am certain about, after all that i have been through, is that we are triggered by the one we love the most para mahanap muli ang totoong tayo.  Real Love does not necessarily need physical connection, because it is a soul thing. Nobody has the power to dissolve it. It is a big part of God's plan. And neither time and space exist in a soul connection because "a spiritual bond is unbreakable." - Dolores Cannon

Hanggang sa muli, mahal kong kaibigan. Nawa'y palaging nasa mabuti ka. Iiyak mo lang 'yan kung kailangan. Bukas okey ka na naman. Pramis.😘💕


Saturday, November 5, 2022

Blessed Beyond Measure

With so much joy and gratefulness in my heart, i am writing again. I praise You!👆

Recalled to report in our mother unit and still waiting yet for our new assignment, we have plenty of time to catch up on each other's lives. It is there that i get to observe me better and assess my growth, as i am not busy doing important tasks anymore.

How far have i gone! Where before i was affected with a slightest smirk and/or indifference of a supposed friend, now i couldn't care less. Perfectly understanding that people see us according to how they are, helped me lot. It saved me from heartbreaks because as an empath i am quite emotional. And it would normally take me time to get over emotional distress. i needed self processing to get over indifferent people every time.

This new strength inspires me more to go even further until the furthest that i can be. I realized i don't need anybody to accompany me in this journey because i may just be the only one who understands me with certainty. To continue to hope for a company might just derail my exact purpose of being here, in this lifetime. The important thing is, i am happy to travel my journey.

To be raised in a family who is not really mine, and to have not even laid eyes on my biological parents; to be ghosted and rejected by many; to not realize my wants and dreams of being somebody; and most especially, the failure to be with "the one" somebody, are actually all blessings-in-disguise that i must be very thankful about. Had life been easy for me, i would have failed finding and appreciating me. Thank You, God, for the gift of understanding!

Now i await for the furtherance of my unique journey. But unlike before, i am patiently waiting light-heartedly and in perfect joy, knowing completely well what i am here for, without pain nor regrets and wishes anymore. To be simply me already completes me. I live in peace and peace i shall give. I will contribute as willingly as i could as i live in balance. 

Next year i am mandated to retire from my government service at my age of 65. And i seem unable to wait even this early because then, i would be able to serve my brethren, my fellow human beings, my way, but according to their uniqueness as well.

Until then.😘

"Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking forward at the same direction."






Tuesday, March 16, 2021

An Unspecified Route

Watching WonderWoman 84 (WW84) thrice, i couldn't stop my indescribable admiration for what Diana (Gal Gadot) was doing. I am an avid aficionado for superhero movies because of my utopian  dream. That, however, i came to know shortly after i got back on my feet following unfortunate numerous life punches which last one, more than seventeen (17) years ago today, almost knocked me out of my consciousness.😌

When i was beginning my college years 
i was an absolute wreck, having unable to make up my mind what course to take. 
I was so preoccupied with my grief and loneliness my mind in complete disarray, i was unable to find my correct path. I was making my decisions out of haste thus, my supposed precious time and efforts simply went to waste. It was not because i did not have ambition, it was merely because i was overpowered by my broken heart. I was very heart focused then, up until now as a matter of fact. And i am truly grateful I AM.😉 

When i finally settled in an AB Psychology course, by the grace of God, i went with my heartfelt interest for it. I truly did, regardless of what tomorrow may come, i thought. I guess i was not into thinking much about the future. I am a very into NOW kind of person. Worryimg was/is not just my cup of tea. I always prefer to do my best, no matter. 

While there in my course (field of study), i also entertained for sometime the idea to take up Clinical Psychology due to my fascination in the human dynamics. It seemed, however, something was holding me back though. I just was not able to pinpoint what exactly it was then. 

Recently though the reason is beginning to show itself little by little. It began when i read a Facebook post suggesting that it might do good to include in all college curricula studies of different human dysfunctions/disorders. I without a doubt spontaneously commented that i would rather that we teach about human positivities so as not to add insult to injury, but come in aid of self-healing.

Just this week, i gathered from my research that the largest component of the total population is beset with Self Love Deficit (SLD) Disorder. "You cannot give what you do not have." is a very old quote that explains the psychology of each person, effecting societal problems. 

To help in healing we need to heal first. Why is that? Love bombing is said to be observed as the most effective tool for healing. Unhealed/wounded people do not have the ability to love bomb effectively, because they are dysfunctional and/or have "mental disorder/s". What they effect is more problems and complications. They cause a so-called emotional instability and/or co-dependency. Only healed people can effect real and honest love bombing because their thoughts/prayers, words, and actions are pure as they truly come from their heart. 

Simple? Very. Easy? Not really. But the Hope is greatest now in these seemingly trying times. "My people are ruined because of ignorance." The Holy Bible tells us that, but many, so many, yet like to remain ignorant that the choices they make continue to pull us collectively down deeper into the abyss.

"Life is a choice. Love is a decision." are two (2) long-standing opinions of great minds but are wrongfully translated to fit whatever personal gains an unhealed person can get from them. So, help us God.🙏😥

Just where are we going from here? Well, it is my greatest hope, as i continue to pray, for people to find the goodness of their heart and operate from there. We are not mere beings of nothing. We are energies. We are both good and bad, positive and negative energies. It is because of these that we have this so-called "revolution within" that is causing our duality/polarity/dichotomy, or however we may call it. And unless we decide for our heart and our mind to align properly, peace and goodwill will continue to be evasive. Choose. Decide. Sanely though. And lovingly. Begin from within you. From your center - you heart - where God resides.

Leaving you, friends, with something to ponder from Dr. Joe Dispenza: "Where your attention is, there your energy will be." I hope and pray you choose rightly.

Love you all! Ciao.😘💕















Monday, December 11, 2017

INDIVIDUATION and INDIVIDUALIZATION

Individuation. Psychologist Carl Gustav Jung  described individuation as the process by which the personal and collective unconscious are brought into consciousness to reveal one's whole personality. In short, it is of becoming self-actualized.

Individualization. People with the strength of individualization see each person as one of a kind. They are intrigued by the unique qualities of each person. They tend to have a natural ability to discover uniqueness or hidden talents without the need for an assessment tool.


I am a lover of people. On rare cases where i may have distanced myself from a few of them, it is mostly their behavior or attitude that pissed me off because i remain to be human who is God's work in progress (i continue to hope). My action/decision of so doing is what i call loving from a distance. My awareness that ill feeling is always temporary because feelings are liquid is what always saves me. Thus, i  do not make decisions out of my feelings. I can not change people. I can only forgive them in my heart.  For "many do not know." - Jesus Christ (True Life in God, Vol. 1)

Last night i had a feel good dream. I looked for its meaning right after waking up knowing that almost every dream i dreamed of pertains to me and my aspirations in relation to my individuation. For the past couple of weeks i felt very strongly and was wrestling against myself. I thought about my rather stringent belief system. And entertained the thought of softening it by installing some little modifications, especially because it involves me.  I needed God's grace for this, so my prayers of the moment (until i am changed) goes like this: "God grant me the grace that i maybe tolerant and patient because as a choleric i am inclined to be demanding and controlling." Then follow it up with the Prayer of Serenity. Not losing my focus, i am confident that these will keep me make my day

My previous dreams effected in me as i am at present. They are the reasons also for my being an increasingly God-person. But as well, they are the reasons for the visitations of numerous difficult temptations. But i continue to hold on, ever inspired by Jesus' words: "never weary of striving and suffering."(TLIG, Vol. 1) because i vowed to myself to always think of what is good for my soul, as i am "a human being in this world, NOT of this world."
       
A dreamer of a Utopian World, it is of my opinion that we are no different from one another.  Being so, this leads me to thinking, therefore, that if each of us will just be willing to begin unlocking the blocks that impede to our own person's understanding there ain't an iota of doubt that my utopian dream can come true. Understanding each one is the key to harmony, but it must be begun with the self, as individuation is a requisite to individualization. 

Leaving you for now, good friends, with these: There is no point in haste. We must live for each moment of our life. To think of the past or worry for the future will only cause depression and anxiety. We must live healthily both in mind and spirit for our body to be in top shape. Maria Edgeworth said: "If we take care of the moments, the years will take care of themselves."

Love you everyone as always.. remember that forever i will be!

Hasta la vista. :)

Sunday, March 8, 2015

HOME

Today, March 8, we join in the national observation/celebration of Women's Day throughout the whole Philippines with the theme: "Juana, Desisyon Mo ay Mahalaga sa Kinabukasan ng Bawat Isa. Ikaw na!" in consonance with the international theme: "Equality for Women is Progress for All."

Equality has been my personal battle cry for more than thirty (30) decades already in this playing field of tears, war, and injustice. "Life is (indeed) difficult." (M. Scott Peck), especially when you grow up being raised in an environment of persistent pain caused by battering. Unknowingly you develop an unconscious medical dysfunction called battered person syndrome (Lenore E. Walker), in effect of your so called homing instinct.

"Love is what we are born with. Fear is what we learn." (Marianne Williamson)
The younger generations and the feeling-young generations are the easy target of war-driven organizations, the likes of ISIS and of any what-have-you's in the local scene, taking advantage of their weak state of being due to immature thinking and understanding of what really life holds true for us, humans.

There is so much power in mind conditioning, not only in the animal kingdom, but also in the supposed higher rationality found in the human specie. It is very sad to know that many of us have degraded ourselves into the lower level of understanding. Sayang na sayang ang pagiging tao natin. At patuloy na palubha nang palubha nating sinasayang!

The freedom I earned during that fateful night of October 10, 2003, has and will always be very precious to me. I called that day my Independence Day! I was to know later that October 10 is International Mental Health Day. "There are no accidents nor coincidences in life." (St. Rita of Avila) I sweetly surrendered and vowed to never retreat to what lies ahead, no matter what lies beneath.

"The single most reason for a low self esteem is the absence of unconditional love." Every person, especially women, has a unique story to tell. But tell me, are there enough willing souls to listen? The ratio of loving souls to that of the number of cynics is very, very tilted. Is it any wonder then why the most agonizing women prefer and choose to keep their quiet and suffer in silence instead?

The Filipino culture of paternity adds more insult to injury for us women. It is this culture that nails us more to our cross because its effect is "silent brotherhood" effecting in women more "just tiis" instead of getting justice. It is mostly for this reason then, that us - the awakened women of our society - must form a strong and defiant bond (and band - of purple!) of sisterhood to neutralize somehow the skewed reality between men and women.

Let us help one another to further educate our young and not-so-young (regardless of gender) that we are all the same in one big family of God; that we have been given the same sets of gifts inside regardless our differences outside; that our differences of gender, and others, are but tests/trials for us to hurdle and handle; and that in the end our ultimate mission is actually only Love!

It must be about time that the band of purple is to be taken seriously, since purple is the color of good judgment. It is the color of purple seeking spiritual fulfillment - where there is peace of mind. It is the combination of red (which is focusing, dynamic and active energy) and blue (which is cooling, calming, and expansive energy), both the warmest and coolest colors respectively, and it is this combination that is believed to be the ideal color. Ideal because it (purple or violet) brings a new dynamic to the expansion of blue and the activity of red.

Violet (purple) is the color of purpose. It is associated with the Crown Chakra (or the 7th Energy Center which is found on top of our head) which links the individual and the Universe. Red brings practicality to the undirected expansiveness of the blue, and allows more energy to emerge. It is for this reason that violet or purple is associated with imagination and inspiration. Rise up then, women of purpose, and be acknowledged!

The world is supposed to be a colorful world. It is not dead, therefore, not merely black and white, but more. The legal world is in black and white, and thus, deadly. Our redemption as living dead is our Divinity because there is founded our honest security. But the description of true divinity is hardly understood by the mediocrity of most humans because many have turned their backs to it by succumbing to the materialism of this cruel world. With this, therefore, as our HOME, is there anything more to ask?

Allow me to leave you these words once again as a penny for your thought, my brothers and sisters, as I bid you goodbye and rest my case by going back to my peace bringing with me my ever elusive "utopian dream" (St. Thomas More): "Life is a choice; LOVE IS A DECISION." Sisters, take care of yourself. It's your own home: your thoughts; your body. Love begins in you and with you. Your and the whole of our future depends on you.

I love you, everyone! And I pray for all of us real hard!















Saturday, February 21, 2015

FALLEN 44?

     As with everybody else, i am one with you in grieving for our brothers who died in the unfortunate Mamasapano incident. But more than my grieving for our fallen heroes, i grieve more for the living who are most unfortunately being victimized unconsciously by the vultures who are just waiting all along for situations, such as this one, to take advantage of in order to put in place their greed and hunger for power.

     The culture of People Power which was effected by the EDSA Revolution when we successfully overthrew the infamous Marcos regime has taken the better out of us because instead of learning from the imperative lessons brought by it, we embraced and set it in place. Rather than think thoughtfully and with care what could be the important message out of every painful eventuality, we choose hastily to get carried away by our emotional grievances and thus, buy the opinion of others. We forget that "everything happens for a reason." We are consistently manifesting how little faith we have by doing this.

     I am not anymore frightened by "the movements" from all over popping out of everywhere and nowhere. Just as it won't surprise me anymore if one day we are going to have another personality sitting as the Philippine President (as lame as the other), because we live in this kind of culture already. We have lost most of our sanity already. We gave them to the "intelligent" (kuno) ones because we thought they know more than we do. We have become their willing victims because we resisted, and continued to resist the power within.

     Albert Einstein said: "Science without religion is lame; religion without science is blind." So it is, my good friends. Those who believe in themselves alone, in believing absolutely in the science of politics, sociology, economics, psychology, etcetera, forgot their God within because most of them are blinded by their desire to attain power, use this weakness (of leaving one for the other) and use the authorities of the Church to move people, because they certainly know how effective the Church people are, in the attainment of their personal goals/motives.

     You think these people, who visit and convince you for mobilization of your flock, truly care for the souls of your sheep/s? Think again. We have to go through some form of alchemy to find our good inside. "Whose soul was not troubled has not known." We have to ever be watchful because a thief most often visits in the night. Naghihintay lang siya/sila ng tamang panahon. Unless we have made our self whole, by incorporating both our good and bad sides and healing, through forgiveness, what needed to be healed and seal them from there, we will always be blinded by our emotions because our psycho-spiritual self is weak and blind. Until we have strengthened inside can we lead our people effectively to a predestined good, and until then our psychology, as a country, will yet be likened to "a blind leading a blind." where both leader/s and follower/s are actually weak. Only in wholeness can there be strength.  

     Politically speaking, i don't think there'd be anything positive to be gained by resorting to a blame game. So what if it's Pnoy's. Purisima's, Napena's, or whoever Juan de la Cruz's fault was it? What good will it do us as a people of an underdeveloped/impoverished country if we know of the whole story? And most of all, would we rather be known as the breeding ground for terrorism by allowing or cuddling the terrorists because of our desire for perfect exclusivity? Or would we rather allow sacrifice for the good of the many?

     Remember, all is fair in love and in war. The illusion of fairness is only in the mind. There is so much to be understood for as long as we are in this world. We fail to understand because we fail to learn. We would rather choose to resist than surrender. Kaya palagi na lang mabigat at mahirap ang buhay. Kung ganyan tayo nang ganyan, sabihin n'yo, papaano tayong susulong? Hangga't hindi natin nilulubayan ang mga sari-sarili natin na mag-isip nang paurong, asahan ninyo nang wala tayong maganda at maalwang buhay na kakapuntahan.

     Ang paghihirap ng tao ay 'di po nang dahil sa pera lang. 'yan din ang sabi at pinatunayan ng mga namatayan nating kamag-anak ng tinawag nilang "fallen 44". Ang nagpapahirap sa tao ay ang kanyang emosyonal na kalagayan na dulot ng kanyang mali'ng pananaw o pag-iisip. And as one nation, we are bound to suffer the same consequence of such wrong perception simply because we choose and decide to be carried away rather than make a paradigm shift and preach our people that.

     "The sky is not the limit; your mind is." Pero papa'no nga namang 'di ka lilimitahan ng utak mo gayong ginugusto mo namang diktahan ka n'yan? At simple'ng-simple'ng dahil din d'yan kaya ka madali'ng mauto at magpauto! Tuloy, nang dahil sa kamangmangan mo ay 'di mo namamalayang ginagamit ka na ng gusto'ng manggamit sa 'yo, at dahil d'yan ang dami'ng mga pobre'ng kaluluwa ang nakakawawa. Have a God-mind!

      "You cannot be partly in Heaven; and be partly in hell." - Jesus Christ, ACIM. In the teachings of moral issues there can only be two (2) choices: morality and immorality. There is absolutely nothing in between them. Take note of that because it is this in-between usage by the vultures that blinds us. Amorality has been found as the main culprit for our getting stuck. This sociological study was established way before but has not been given due importance, much less priority. So we keep running 'round the bush, repeating the same mistakes, nobody knows until when. Hay, buhay!!!

      Fallen 44? I'd rather call them 44 Heroes because they died for their country. And we cannot afford to let their death go in vain. Death cannot be predicted. It can only be accepted as part of life's mysteries. There will always be sacrificial lambs, we all know that. We learned of that in times before Christ, but until now we have not accepted that as a matter of fact. Freedom begins in acceptance. But where also forgiveness must be injected as a very necessary tool for freedom.

     Tanggapin natin ang posibilidad na wala sigurong aamin sa masakit na nangyari dahil sa maraming kadahilanan. Una'ng-una na d'yan ang kakahinatnan ng ating bayan. Hindi nga ba't maghahalo ang balat sa tinalupan kung magkaganoon 'yan? And then there is pride that always gets in the way with anybody. We have to understand the wisdom of everything, even that of death, for the price of ignorance is very, very expensive. And its reach absolutely expansive.

     As i offer my prayers of peace for all of us, Filipinos and every foreigner who considers himself/herself Filipino, let us please hope and do our part for the betterment of our country by looking at things in their proper perspective. May the Holy Spirit of God continue to guide us.

     Hugs and kisses, everyone!