Generational Divide

My son, the only one left with me in this house (kids leave when they get older to find their sovereignty, that's why every couple must be best friends. No kidding.) asked me if I'd like to have my Netflix back on my tv. Without hesitation, I said no. I am more amused watching the ongoing impeachment trial, dahil hindi lang s'ya tunay na buhay na pangyayari but more because I consider me a frustrated lawyer.😛

But yeah, I would have wanted to be that, after graduating high school. Ma-reklamo ako first and foremost, at hindi basta-basta kaagad-agad gustong sumunod sa mga utos ng kung ninuman. Kailangan ko munang kumbinsihin ang sarili ko, at pag alam kung wala na talaga ako'ng choice, at saka lang ako tumatalima. So hard-headed me. 

Until "love" crushed me. Or I thought it did. It took me many, many years to understand things to gain my "freedom" from its weight.

Masaya na ang simpleng buhay ko, kahit sa gitna ng mga panahong di maiiwasang pagdalaw ng hindi mawaglit-waglit na alaala ng poncio pilato'ng alam kong hindi ko lubusang makakalimutan sa kadahilanang alam na alam ko rin - the bittersweet nothings. Weeh, nothing nga ba? Kada araw kaya..🤭 

So much for that though. Balik na tayo sa nakakaaliw at nakakabaliw (lalo na!) na impeachment trial. That last day of the week's trial's (August 12, 2026) word for the day was generation divide, courtesy of the Presiding Officer. Parang ang ganda-ganda pakingggan kahit na embellished word lang naman actually s'ya ng old term namin na generation gap. Pinaganda lang para hindi naman nakakatanda o nakakaumay. 

Well, I feel so sorry for raining on your parade, Chiz, with all due respect, pero kahit na ilang ikot pa ang daanin ng mundo sa ating solar system, until its end, magpapatuloy ang fundamentality of the mind. "Only the mind is fundamental." -Jesus Christ, ACIM

Kaya tayo nabibiktima ng sosyedad, at large, ay sa kadahilanang lunok lang tayo ng lunok ng kahit na anumang gustong ipakain o gustong ipapaniwala ng mga nakakataas sa atin. Until now, we haven't gone past through our authority issues. And primarily that is because the majority of us do not have yet our very own sovereignty. Tamad tayong mag-isip at gumawa ng research. Wag na tayong magtaka why we are still imprisoned in our mind. 

Now, with the emergence of numerous scientific findings regarding the importance of coherence of the mind, heart, and nervous system, I am finding it a little bit more difficult to instill the matter to effect change for peace in the world. Kung dito pa nga lang hirap na, papaano pa nga kaya kung para sa sanlibutan na ang pangarap nating ito..?🥺

Yesterday was the beginning of my comeback as a part time teacher, for the pre-college, in a seminary here (I was cancelled by the previous rector because we did not share the same frequency unfortunately) and I was grateful to have found out once again that no matter the age, with a heart full zest and intention, the fundamentality of the mind explained is totally understood. 

I am glad/thankful always that the same thing happens when I do talks to other ages. Hindi nga kasi nagbabago ang pag-iisip ng tao. Ulit, "only the mind is fundamental." Ang nagiging problema lang naman ay kung pinipili n'ya ang pagiging mangmang na lamang magpakailanman.

Accordingly, science has been here for three hundred years only, while spirituality has been with us since the beginning of time, and its end, if there is. Nag-iibaiba lang tayo sa mga paniniwala natin. But gosh, we are all one and the same.

With the passing of the Age of Pisces (Faith was its central theme) comes the Age of Aquarius which is all about Spirituality. "There are no coincidences nor accidents in life." Was it from St. Theresa of Avila? Di ko na sure. Sigurado lang ako na nothing happens in random. May mga rason sa bawat pangyayari. Just like kailangang magkasunod ang Faith at Spirituality. Kung bakit? 'yan ang challenge ko sa inyo to find out for yourself the reason why. After all we are all called to think deeply and critically simula pa sa panahon ni Hesus. 

Remember.. "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge." -Hosea 4:6

Hanggang sa muli mga minamahal!😘💕

Awesome Little Miracles

Yesterday I met someone with almost the same depth and passion I have, we enjoyed talking and sharing life experiences for I don't know exactly how long. This is the beauty of absolute emotional resonance.

Partly, I attributed our warmth in each other's company (even for that very brief initial moment of meeting) to our common denominator of our youth's deeply embedded spirituality. I am overwhelmingly awed in my thoughts that indeed this could maybe be the time of God's promise: meet "my" people.

Life has been pretty lonely lately, especially that I have not been able to completely move on yet from the passing of the most famous and sweetest couple the land has ever had. Who would ever know that they  be the ones who would break the "love template", which resulted in humongous devastation and heartbreaks. 

I was caught by surprise in  finding out the turn of events. Grabe, sobrang naging grabe ang epekto. They got more popular as a couple now that they have returned home, gone to where they truly belong. Love remains, and will definitely do, to be the most amazing thing that will surprise us. And this is just the beginning, I think. Papunta pa lang tayo sa most exciting part.

Going back to my new-found friend. She is relatively young, as is most of my soul tribe, and thus, very ideal when it comes to her relationship goal, not only in effect of the social construct but mainly because it is what it should be. And I bleed this early for her due to that idealism that I could just but secretly sigh and offer her my prayer of "sana nga." May her dream come true albeit the needed info of the knowledge of the self and what love really is. 

Not everything is meant to be said. We wait for God's timing or we disrupt the natural growth meant for an individual. "A soul has its own rhythm." Love does not impose nor pressure. It makes space for people. Hindi ipinipilit ang pag-ibig bagkus ito inuunawa/umuunawa at ay nagbibigay laya. Pag ganyan, natatapos ang usapan ng may peace of mind. Everything is well that ends well. 

(Posting this finally after a very long time. Took me over a year yata. Sorry..🥺)

CoyGuy in 3D: My POV

An empath and an INFJ in MBTI, I have been crying every now and then, and I am fully aware and as well understand where these emotions/tears are coming from. My trying so hard to be an INTJ helps very little. Sad..

Almost a hundred days past Cocoy Laurel's death, after 58 days of Guy's (when he chose to follow), I know I won't be able to put an end to my falling tears, out of my personal devastation because I feel so hard for their lonesome unfulfilled supposed-to-be twin flame/soul journey, if I fail to vent this out.

A twin flame is not here for a romantic purpose alone. It is, most of all, here to do the task of reminding everyone that honest real love is a soul thing. And that unless each of them takes care of his/her own self, there won't happen a completion of perfect union on Earth. Each is not here to save the other.

In the completion of task, the self is first. This is where the so-called individuation is most needed as this involves a serious and bloody shadow-work. "There is no coming to consciousness without pain." -Carl G. Jung

When individuation is all taken care of, integration/reintegration must come next. This is the merging of anima and animus. This follows the universal law of gender, as each one of us has both male and female characteristics. It is but a matter of which particular energy one is more prone into. 

In the case of Cocoy and Guy, the latter is more observable to carry a male energy than the former. That is why in their twin flame journey, which naturally involves a runner and a chaser archetypes, Cocoy had been shown to be loving Guy the most. But that is only because they both did not know what was happening exactly behind their own dynamics.

Each one in a twin flame journey must know and embody love as it should be: inclusive, as is dictated in the universal law of one. So that when both of them have attained already this, and thus, choose and decide to come/stay together as one, they can forge finally a third energy which is needed in humanity's ascension. 

We all are here for everybody. But society's constructs had been most difficult for the many of us to break away from, especially the standards in socio-ecomomic strata complicated pa more with the elderlies' control issues because they tend to put more importance on their reputation. Ay naku, patay talaga tayo d'yan!

With the parents of Cocoy and Guy, hats off ako sa kanila. They supported the young lovers from the very beginning. Nora's Mamay Tunying, accordingly, was very respectful that she'd remind Guy not to tarnish the Laurel's name. They were all loving of one another. (My tears falling here again, kasi bibihira ang ganyan.) Cocoy's Mommy Celia, on the other hand, taught Cocoy to always consider the other as better than he was. Maybe it was her way of  implanting in him humility. Kaya gano'n na lang kung parang sambahin n'ya si Guy, aside from his love for her. And also why Cocoy was evasive and extremely shy despite his popularity and accomplishments.

Guy, on the other hand, since siguro (I'm not sure) namatay ang Mamay n'ya had nobody to guide her wholeheartedly, ay napunta sa hindi mga kaayaaya'ng pangyayari sa buhay n'ya dulot na rin ng marami'ng mga bagay at mapagsamatalang mga tao. Ego entity can easily eat someone up when devoid of self conscious awareness. The end of her days, which was what, 34 years (?), was probably her most difficult. I could only surmise. "Control yourself, or the universe will send you someone to control you." Ang dami'ng naglipanang narcissists sa mundong ito. 

While everybody deserves second chances, you can only redeem yourself through self awareness. We are God's co-creators. Minamahal lang tayo ng Diyos regardless what we do with our life, dahil nga Diyos S'yang hindi nagbibigay ng anumang kondisyon, pero kung hindi mo tuturuan ang sarili mo na ganoon ka rin dapat magmahal, darating ang araw na naubos na pala ang second chances mo. 

Twins normally undergo similar patterns, like firstly, the bubble phase era. Tapos maghihiwalay, magbabalikan, maghihiwalay uli, magbabalikan na naman, for how many times nobody exactly know dahil each path is unique, just like each individual's life journey is unique. Walang magkatulad. 

Cocoy's last attempt to see Guy in the U.S. na sabi ay hindi s'ya hinarap pained me the most kasi out of his innocent child-like love for her, he was most probably overcame by his hero archetype as his motivation for going there to see her. When that is coupled by a messiah complex pa, walang kapantay na sakit ang dulot n'yan. Most of the extremely religious are victimized by that mentality. We are not here to save. We are here to serve. LIFE IS MEANT FOR FRIENDSHIPS AND SERVICE.

However, let us celebrate them - Victor Laurel & Nora Aunor - they were sent us as inspirations. Their names spelt everything to be amazed and thankful about. Do your research. I did mine. "There are no coincidences nor accidents in life. Everything happens for a reason."💜

A twin flame journey is for transformation.

Hope is what I will leave you for now, those in a twin flame/soul journey especially, with my favorite line of Mr. Ryan Cayabyab's SOMETIME, SOMEWHERE, sang by Victor Laurel: "sometime.. that sometime will turn to forever, for all time; somewhere.. our somewhere will not just be one place, but everywhere." 

A soul is in all places all at the same time.🙏

My end conclusion therefore would be: CoyGuy's love story was God's design to be "hidden intentionally" as the climax of the Piscean Age, for this Aquarian Age, so we may greatly learn the virtue and power of wholeness. 

Hanggang sa muli. Mag-iingat po ang lahat. Take charge of each of your own life.😘💕

 

 

    

VANITY (A Closer Look)

        The effecting ill result of ignorance, which began in Hollywood with the arrest of Sean "Diddy" Combs, is loudest in the U.S. nowadays and its purported allegation of escalation with the reelection of Donald Trump is ever rising, marred heavily by his first-time leadership. It seems to me like many are already in fear, if not cowering from it this early, globally. 

        Unaffected (so deeply sorry if i am), i felt compelled to know for myself the history (background, not only that of Diddy's but of those involved as well, which are a plenty!), and stories/un-fateful events, both current and the not-very-current, before i can draw my own hypothesis of this gruesome matter.

        "My friends, it is wise to nourish the soul, otherwise you will breed dragons and devils in your heart." - Carl Gustav Jung, The Red book, p.232

        If i choose to come from my, most of the time, introverted nature nowadays, my personal take would be: all it takes for everyone of us is to live with each moment in Christ-consciousness. Since the beginning of my decision to share my thoughts through writing and personal sharing, i have been without let up driving the importance of finding the Christ within each of us as the only way to effectively emulate Jesus Christ. Unfortunately though, like Cory Feldman in this harrowing saga, i seem to be a "voice in the wilderness."

       "My people are ruined because of ignorance." this, too, i have unrelentlessly emphasized. Although i understand with absolute certainty the fact that for as long one's ego entity is what dictates his/her every thought, words, and action, nothing about that person is going to change. 

        Only God can change anything and everything. We have that God in us through Jesus Christ who came in flesh to show us the Way. We are co-creators towards God's plans for us. But no, most of us chose to ignore the importance of The God inside us by being doubting Thomases, especially those who consider themselves intellectuals, feeling empowered and thus, entitled. From these people, we can only imagine the magnitude of plethora of evilness from the people in authority and fame such as Hollywood kingdom. May i once again remind you that ego, because of its insecurity as an entity of the dark, is always endlessly longing/desiring for fame, power and fortune. And mind you, it does not have at all any contentment. It thrives in greed, so it destructs even itself. "Ignorance is bliss."? Think again.  

        Amused with Psychology, my grandson told me of a discouragement advised him by a relative elder when he told him, as saying: "It doesn't effect any good, as it only justifies a wrongdoing." Kung pwede lang, baka pinulot ko na ang nagsitaasan kong kilay na nahulog sa pinakamababang lugar! Gusto ko'ng mawalan ng ulirat pagkarinig ko. huhuhu So, that's what happened to him. i felt very sorry for the guy. His understanding of our power of choice fell so short. My prayers.

        Science and spirituality must go together, or we fall from grace. Not one can successfully go through peacefully with life without the other. (Scientology is a crap!) As humans, we must understand our self from the viewpoint of all the established scientific studies (whatever resonates with us in our endeavor to become better people) there are; and as soulful humans (there are some who don't) we must get in touch with the Holy Spirit 24/7. Yup, without let up. In continuum. If you have difficulty believing in that, continuum, then vou do not understand multi-dimensionality yet, much less live in it. But be that as it may, never lose hope. 

        "There are three (3) things: Faith, Hope, and Love. But the greatest is Love."  I will forever embrace the religion of my choice regardless its imperfections. Nothing is perfect in any religion anyways. But i will continue to live in my own authenticity because i believe that is how God wanted for me to be. Maybe also because deep down within me i would like to remain very loyal by the one who brought me to Jesus Christ, my Mother Mary. i am not very religious, that is why i am not also very dogmatic. My faith is in my heart. It is there that i feel what is for me and what is not. I wished to understand Love first, trusting that when i do, everything will follow. Hope is eternal.

        Life is meant for friendships and service, guys. For whatever, you know where to reach me. i am ever reachable because i am not a star nor wishing to be. i am just me. let us help one another. Ciao.💜

SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AIN'T ENOUGH, in honor of Liu (Fat Cat)

i wrote this after crying so hard for the boy who jumped to his death because of a💔. 

Pope Francis has issued a statement already about the moral righteousness of a divorce, i respect and honor that because he is correct in his decision/s as he always is. In fact he is the only pope fit for this era, i think. But, as my young dearly loved friend and i, continue to discuss on the matter of the divorce controversy i continue to hold on to my stand being against it. 

"Life Teaches" was the print of a white over-sized shirt gifted to me back in the 90's. Maybe if i had not been from an experience of getting free, from a hellish marriage of 23 agonizing years, through a church nullification and afterwards civil annulment, i might have been a pro-divorce advocate also. Pero nga kasi i had to find ways to set me free (ayaw ng ex-husband, when i prayed for the help of his lawyer best friend na cousin ko, at bagkus ay nagalit pa daw dahil pinangingialaman s'ya. Very typical for a boy, who pretends to be a man, to have his cake and eat it, too. kalurkey!) and i was set free naman, salamat sa Diyos!🙏

Our life experiences and translations/interpretations of them are a great part of what make us unique from one another, thereby making the phrase "no two individuals are exactly alike. Not even an identical twins." true. When i was in the nullification process, i had with me a case at that same time whose basis for the nullification was psychological. At matagal na s'yang living-in with his partner. It pained them both not to be able to partake during communion rite in Holy Masses, lalo't may mga edad na rin. My basis nga pala was technical deformity. Sana kasi early kong nalaman ang sinabi ni Carl Jung about synchronicities. Talk about hard-headedness!😏(tama nga si Rick Price in his song title na ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS)

i still stand believing doon sa sinabi ng isang lawmaker na "we have enough, even maybe more than enough laws, na kailangan lang i-implement ng mabuti at maipaliwanag ng wasto sa publiko." So, feeling ko, why do we need pa more? i was also a battered wife then sa lahat ng aspeto: economic, psychological, physical, name everything there is. Nakalabas naman ako. If i did it, others also can. 

Looking back, however, i realized that i really had to go through all those that i went through because i have a long task ahead of me. Living in here is definitely not about our age. Not how long we live, but how we conduct our lives to be able to sincerely contribute sa kung anuman ang pinagdaanan ko na pwede'ng makapagpabago ng pananaw ng iba for their own sake also, especially for their freedom.

At eto na nga, ginulantang ulit ang medyo mahimlay ko ng damdamin ng nakakalumong pagtalon ni Liu sa Shibanpo Yangtze River Bridge, whose body was found 12 days later pa. He jumped on April 11, this year. This got me crying all over again because i have a pressured-cooked heart for the young. 

Flash back: after failing my marriage, i was trying so hard helping me get myself back not only for my children but for me mostly, as "i cannot give them what i do not have." ('yan kaya ang guiding principle ng mga katulad ko?), nang tiempo namang nagkahiwalay din ang anak ko at ang girlfriend n'ya since high school. "When it rains, it really does pour!" Nanadya ang panahon ng bonggang-bongga. i had to accompany him in his healing journey because sino pa nga ba? Meron pa bang iba? Eldest son ko nga pala s'ya. i would later learn, years after, na the cause of the break up was maternal intervention. In this 3-dimensional world, it would seem to me that most of what comprise us as One people (supposedly) is a hedonist attitude where money is god.

Nineteen years later, eto na naman, umulit s'ya: my third son and his lawfully-wedded wife separated due again to hedonism, leaving their only child with us (salamat sa Diyos may isang kaluluwa na posibleng mabago as "it is easier to raise a child than a broken man.") Sama ulit sa takbo ng buhay ng nangangailangang anak. But this one, because he is a "seeker", i was just so glad he intently listened to my inputs on human dynamics and psycho-kinesiology uniquely according to him and the estranged wife. Later on, when he was already able to maneuver back his own life, i dealt with his kid. We are living in this house na practically all the 4 of us are under a Leo sign, so one can only imagine the chaos kung pagbibigyan ang temperament ng bawat-isa under an ego-drive because of its ignorance! Kaya pala walang puknat ang "pagtawag" sa akin para mag-aral ng kung anu-ano in every possible ways that i can so i will understand. Praise God.

Liu's death was, more than my experience with my sons, i feel i can relate more because i was very young when i was heartbroken, too. Personal ang epekto more or less. First loves bring the deepest cut. But more so for Liu because he invested in a lot of very, very hard-earned money na mas kailangan sana ng naghihirap din n'yang pamilya (as revealed by his sister later). Woe unto him/her who cannot survive a first cut. But a great promise naman to who can. Laban lang sana. 

Pero when one is born in a society where practicality is not balanced with spirituality, lalo naman when there is an absence of a support system inside a family, na pinalala pa ng self-controlled vulnerability, i can just cry for you so hard na hindi na ako magtatanong kung bakit. Kasi lahat pala tayo, when merged with divinity na ang pananaw sa pagmamahal, ay magmamahal na lang ng kusa kahit na anupaman. Undertanding is indeed a gift.

The 3D definition of Love will get anybody wasted in the end, i tell you all, guys, as it is only Love's divinity that won't wear off. Understand Love more in the context of the God inside you. Don't rush. Wait. i repeat: Solitude heals. You will know that in your heart. Promise.

Until sometime again, precious ones. Ciao.😘💕

IS THERE TRULY JUSTICE IN LEGALIZING DIVORCE?

Maingay ulit ang dalawang kampo, kaya nagpasya akong uriratin ang bagay na ito. But let me make it clear first that this is how i personally see/evaluate things involving this controversy. I come with no intention to affect anybody's opinion.

My young friend, of substance, sent me a private massage regarding this matter as we used to talk this way as officemates then. Magka-ututang-dila kami, despite our age difference, kasi sa mga bagay-bagay na gusto naming intindihin sa medyo malalimang pananaw o perspektibo. But this one got me into thinking deep that i need to google ano nga ba ang diperensya ng dalawa (annulment at divorce) talaga. 

The following are Google's respective definitions for each:

Very simply, "a divorce ends a legal marriage and declares the spouses to be single again."; while

"an annulment is a ruling that erases a marriage by declaring the marriage null and void and that the union was never legally valid." Record-wise the marriage remain. There seemingly is a tinge of complication in the latter, isn't it?

In the grand tapestry of our unique landscape, marami nga ang papabor sa unang tingin nila sa diborsyo dahil normal na normal sa tao ang gustuhin at piliin ang madaliang pamamaraan para makalabas sa kung anumang hindi kagandahang sitwasyon na kanilang kinalalagyan. A human being is very naturally impatient. Gusto n'ya palagi ng instant gratification, 'yong tipong "i want this, and i want this NOW!"

S/he does not believe that "great things take time." that therefore, there is something wrong in his/her belief system. Mayubay ang kanyang pananampalataya, hindi nakaangkla sa nakasaad sa libro at bersikulo Jeremiah 29:11. 

"Broken women know how to love,

but not who to love;

broken men know who to love,

but not how to love."

The government is prone to side with the ephemerality of life and of the world kaya ang tutok nila ay nasa pang-ibabaw na kaanyuan ng mga pangyayari lamang, kaya normal din para sa kanila ang solusyunan ang mga bagay sa pinakamadaling pamamaraan. While the church goes a lot deeper than what is normally seen on the outside because it is concerned with faith; with belief. Kaya matagal at madugo muna ang pinagdadaraanan sa annulment process nito kasi both of the couple are given the benefit of the doubt, as members of one body of Christ. 

I honestly think that the church is greatly concerned with what happens next after the divorce law is passed, as humans are prone to abuse also. Pag inabuso/naabuso yan, ang daming mga bata ang apektado sigurado. At mahihirapan tayong kayanin pa 'yan. 

We are witnesses to multitudes of suicides committed by the young in the recent past. The main reason is usually love na buong akala lang natin ay out of romanticism kasi mababaw nga lang ang pagtingin at intindi natin. Pero kung alam natin at intindi ang tinatawag na human dynamics alam nating ang kawalan ng totoong pagmamahal sa sarili ang dahilan ng lahat. 

The church is concerned with the family structure as a basic unit because true love begins in there. Kung patuloy lang na sisirain ang pamilya, rather than be given salient interventions to improve it, i wonder how many folds will be added sa mga sira na ngayon pa lang? To even think about the numbers gives me shivers.

In one of the sermons at a wedding, an officiating priest reminded of the newly-weds to be particular of how they, as a couple, bear with one another so that their resulting children will not be broken as it is very difficult to heal that sometimes they do not heal at all.

Generally, people are good at hiding how they are doing. Sometimes for fear of what might be said against them, na lalong pinabibigat kung hindi nila alam papaano ito sasabihin. Most of us are ashamed to show our vulnerability, so we keep living on seemingly agreeable facades. Life's been mostly a bitch for us. We grew up not knowing how to deal with them. 

Unconsciously caught up by romanticism, people tie the knot, marry with eyes closed and enjoy the party. It's what mostly happens. Not with everybody, but very surely with the many. For how long the marriage stays only the two of them can guess. 

Love takes time because it does not primarily involve one's three (3) lower energy centers or chakras. Dito muna sa energy centers ang totoong labanan ng bawat tao. Ang tinatawag na alchemical process that refines and purifies us para mabuo ulit tayo. Kaya ipinaalala palagi sa atin na "we are our own enemy." Na wala sa labas ang kaaway. When we commit to a marriage while still broken, we are naturally bound to produce broken children. The vicious cycle is doomed to go on until I don't know when. 

Let me leave you then with the question as my title: "IS THERE TRULY JUSTICE IN LEGALIZING DIVORCE?" because when there is no justice, there is no peace. Promise.

Ciao, everyone.

THAT'S THE WAY IT IS

         "I can read your mind and i know your story

          I see what you're going through, yeah.

          It's an uphill climb and i'm feeling sorry

          but i know it will come to you, yeah

          Don't surrender 'cause you can win

          in this thing called LOVE.

Remembering clearly these as they are etched in my heart beginning the day i hit rock bottom and on my way to my recovery. The thing is, most of those who cannot keep themselves intact when they are broken is that they are so attached with whatever, wherever, or whomever they associate with that idea of feeling in love. Trust me, I was there then, that's why i know.

It was a very, very difficult phase for me because sabi nga ni Kim Chiu, nagmahal lang naman ako. And because "when you hit rock bottom you have nowhere to go but up" i went back to reading the Holy Bible again, partly because i wanted to find sana a kakampi naman (dahil mostly lumaki ako tending to myself) at kailangang-kailangan ko ng makikinig sa akin who will be there lovingly and patiently listening to my woes. I was so broken and did not know where to begin picking my shredded self off.

                  When you want it the most there's no easy way out

        When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt

        Don't give up on your Faith, 

        Love comes to those who believe it

        And that's the way it is.

Fast forward kasi i am not there anymore naman na. And so it is, i focused on studying, researching again about human nature, its dynamics, intricacies/complexities, and however they are called, para lang maintindihan ko ang sa tingin ko ay sobrang mga mahahalaga'ng bagay-bagay for my peace of mind (kasama na siempre ang healing). In short, i stayed in my left brain for the longest time na dumating na rin ako sa puntong hindi na maganda ang political outlook ko, lalo na pag nababalikan ko sa pagninilay ko ang opinyon ni Thomas Harris (may-akda ng libro'ng I'm Okay, U'r Okay) where he stressed that "Democracy is for the intelligent electorate."

The good thing about teaching and coaching is that, the learning goes both ways, na parang pagmamahalan lang na two-way street nga daw, na totoo naman. Having begun my psycho-kinesiology practice in 2013, marami na rin ang nagbago both sa akin at sa mga pananaw ko. This led me lately to veer away from the political aspects of practically everything. W/Man's greed for power leads him/her nowhere, at wala rin namang magagawa ang sinuman maliban sa sarili so, bakit pa? "You can bring a horse in a river, but you cannot make it drink."

I went back into accepting the thought that i am probably made to understand about what i was interested the most because my focus would be human relations. Honestly, i was most excited about this thought. Bakit? Kasi only love makes the world go round. The various stories that make up for the successes and failures of loving (however way it is translated) is most fascinating, don't you think? Well, unless ipokrito o ipokrita ka, op kors. Pag ganoon ka, hala ka, tanungin mo na ang sarili mo kung tao ka pa ba? hehehe joke lang po..✌

In today's topic i would like to delve into the most intriguing and super duper kilig love story of KimPau. No, it is not because Paulo's roots are from Calbayog, but it's his depth that caught my interest. He is a cousin to a very beautiful lady who i consider to be "almost my daughter" and whose depth is quite the same as his (Paulo's), that is why she is also very misunderstood - typical of old souls anyways. 

Well, because both Kim Chiu and Paulo Avelino are popular stars, especially these days, hindi ko na kailangang ulitin pa how he manifested his love for Kim. He waited so long na kung hindi ganon kalakas ang paniniwala (Faith) ay matagal na sanang bumitaw. The traits of introverted people are just so exemplary that their gauge must be their inner knowing - that powerful thing called intuition which says na alam mo. Na hindi mo naman alam pero deep inside alam mong alam mo. Whew, hirap ipaliwanag. Ang makakaintindi lang yata ay 'yong mga makaka-relate because been there na. 

As for Kim, oh, wow, this girl is not really just a girl. She is a super girl, but really a quintessential woman. Babae ako'ng may edad na, pero saludo'ng-saludo ako sa kanya that despite her being young, who has been through a lot as well, pero talagang napangalagaan ang sarili n'yang pagka-babae. This is, for me, the main reason why she stands out as the inspiration for young women in this day and age of a rather loose morality among the young and old alike. Sorry again..✌✌

                    When you question me for a simple answer

        I don't know what to say, NO.

        But it's plain to see if you stick together,

        you're gonna find a way, yeah

        So, don't surrender 'cause you can win

        in this thing called LOVE.

Sa paghahanap mo sa sarili mo, huwag ka lang talaga sanang mawawala. You must be intact come hell or high water, lalo na ang brain and heart coherence mo. Panatilihin palagi ang pagmamasid sa sarili, as conscious awareness of the self is very important.

Thing is, there is only one (1) secret in finding true love - the kind that lasts a lifetime - which is not really, in a sense, a secret. It only became a secret because precisely it was not explained nor understood clearly. It is why Kim Chiu is loved by the most coveted bachelors and the target of envy of less attractive ladies despite their pretty faces and sexy bods. 

Yup, love conquers all. The Universal Law of Attraction clearly shows that you attract who or what you are. Kim and Paulo's common denominator is that. Their friendship is a big plus factor, kasi ang buhay ay hindi lang naman puro kilig. There is also a so-called practicality that is attached to a balanced life and meaningful living. We are very naturally dichotomous beings na nasasakop ng tinatawag na Universal Law of Polarity. So then, the big question you have to ask yourself if you are in search of love and loving is, am i love? But your guide to knowing if you are love is, am i a loving person? And the first and biggest manifestation for that is self respect. "Kindness is for the strong." When you respect your own self, you'll respect others. 

The prerequisite to falling in love then, is to be love yourself. Dahil sa kadahilanang pagmamahal ka, normal lang na mahalin ka, kasi kamahal-mahal palagi ang pagmamahal, di nga ba? Well, sa mga may nakakubkub na hindi magandang espiritu, kasuklam-suklam ka, siempre. But that is part of being alive that one must accept, appreciate or endure. Pero makakayanan mo ang lahat dahil kampante kang mayroong nand'yan at pinuprotektahan ka. "If God is within or for  me, who can be against me?" God is love and therefore, you are.

If you are not yet love, pasensyahan po, pero pagdaraanan mo muna ang mga dapat mo talagang pagdaanan, no matter the pain. Wala po kasing painless process na tinatawag. Dapat cleared ka muna o bayad sa mga pagkakamali mong nagawa sa kapwa mo. This is where the need for solitude or isolation comes in. "We pay for everything as only the grace of God is free." (True Grit) 

When you are done with your clearing job, the grace of God becomes your clearance to become love. At malalaman mo 'yan sa puso mo. Your direct line to God is your heart because your heart is the seat of your soul. And then the road to ultimate joy begins. Kaya sabi ni Paulo: wala sa edad 'yan. 

There will be flood/s of tears na aagos muna, hiningang parang mapupugto, at puso'ng parang mabibiyak, dahil lahat ng ipinaranas mo sa kapwa mo ay babalik sa 'yo dahil tayo ay iisa (know the Universal Law of Oneness). Nasa sa 'yo na lang kung kakayanin mo o hindi muna. Walang mangingialam sa desisyon mo dahil buhay mo naman 'yan, at hindi sa iba. Uulitin ko na naman po ang kasabihang "buntot mo, hila mo" sa puntong ito dahil marami talaga ang matitigas na nga ang ulo, broken pa ang puso.💔

              When life is empty, with no tomorrow

      And loneliness starts to call

      Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow

      'cause Love's gonna conquer it all.

      ALL."

May pag-asa. Kapit lang, kaibigan.💗

Until then, my most revered friends! Sana makatulong ito sa inyong pagninilay. Kasihan nawa tayong lahat ng Maykapal.🙏