Two months following the change of administration I was assigned in another office. This is one of the normal occurence when working in a government institution. But I am pleased, happy - is more like it, with the way things are because I finally found out that indeed WE ALWAYS BLOOM WHERE WE ARE PLANTED. (Of course, you know what I meant by saying that. Medyo matagal na rin naman kasi tayo'ng magkasama. Ka-dimalas man daw kon ngada yana diri pa ak niyo kilala.) [We've been with each other for quite a time already, it'd be strange if you don't know me by now.]
In this new office I chanced upon an officemate who, after our sort of slight argumentation, reminded me that "love is a decision" because he seemed to be in an "I-cannot-believe-you" state following my freezing cold answer regarding this shitty (pardon my word, please) "getting-back together just because you are husband and wife" thing. That is the biggest problem with people! They cannot leave other people with their own belief system. Akala nila sila lang ang marunong mag-isip. [They assume they're the only ones who know how to think!]
Later that week, I learned from his previous classmate, who is still close friends with him, that he and his wife frequently fight in a not so fashionable (aw, fashionable na ada yana. Hehe) manner - domestic violence kuno an tawag siton.
So, i thought of his reminder: "Love is a decision." I was for many times tempted to throw - "spit" siguro an mas naangay nga pulong - (Diyos ko, pasayloa ako!) back the reminder to him. But judging from the feedback I got from his long-time officemates, I decided it best to keep quiet.
As a point of reflection, I thought that maybe most of the people who remain in a sorry state remain that way up until now because they are proud to admit that they made a mistake when they made their decision.
I just finished reading the book PROPHECIES FOR THE NEW MILLENIUM by Elizabeth Clare Prophet. It spoke of love and brotherhood (generic)through self-mastery. Self-mastery to me is equated to Jesus' words in the Holy Bible: Seek first the Kingdom of God, without failing to notice that the Kingdom Jesus is referring to is our-self (the Kingdom in Heaven will come in His appointed time), following His Promise that He will be in each one of us.
Friends, check it out and be honest to yourself, maybe you, too, will see that what is causing your problem is that, "the decision to love" you made was done when you did not know what really love is all about.
But THERE IS HOPE, SO MUCH HOPE that you must just stay where you are. For as long as your current situation is not life threatening or you're not disobeying God's commandments, despite discomfort all of those uncomfortable feelings will soon banish and change forever if you just keep holding on to God. You see, acceptance is a first step to changing that what you would like to be changed. It is indeed only the TRUTH that shall set you free. The truth that you made mistake then; a mistake that you would like to correct now but that correction can only be made possible by God's healing grace.
Friends, if we are to live as brothers (and sisters) in Christ, we must all live under Grace. And it is very, very important to heal first before grace can be bestowed upon us. Dapat magsimula muna sa bawat isa sa atin ang pagbabago. Stay away from complaining, it won't get you anywhere. Begin the habit of loving until you have mastered it, for everything begins with the decision to start a good habit. Don't go mastering that which does not count for the salvation of your soul.
Remember: Our final destination is to be with God. If GOD IS LOVE, and He created us because He loves us, then we must also love (in its truest, purest sense) because it is the only means to be happy.
Hugs and kisses to you all! I LOVE YOU FOREVER! God bless!
