Friday, August 28, 2009

QUANTUM PHYSICS

Physics is one of the most difficult subjects I encountered in the entirety of my school life. I hated it so much I barely passed the course every time. Mabuti na lang ‘di ako grade-conscious. Two (2) years ago I encountered the word again in one of the most loved books I read. Both curiosity and interest led me to look seriously for its meaning or I will not completely get the gist of what I was reading at that time.

The death of our most beloved Pres. Maria Corazon C. Aquino (who really lived up to the meaning of her name, possessing the “heart of Mother Mary”), which brought back the nostalgic feeling – to the time of the historic (and hysteric) event following Sen. Benigno Aquino’s death (very treacherous murder, is more like it) – for every Filipino, left people wondering in awe and astonishment because of the influx of sincere mourners.

In the kind of difficult times that we are in right now, we desperately and urgently need leaders who are of great moral ascendancy, for it is one basic natural human tendency to look up to the leaders of the land as role models. To reiterate: “everybody needs someone or something (Faith) to measure his/her life against.” To just keep criticizing our leaders will lead us nowhere because in the mediocrity of life the game is always about power. Every misunderstanding is a power play. Petty man ‘yan o grabe.

One of the most important information I gathered in my previous readings from the writings of different life coaches is to think about the time of our own death. To see and picture in our mind what it is we want when we die. What the people will say about us during our death, in our wake, in our burial, and after we are long gone. It is of great importance that we do so because we are going to hear all the comments, the curse and the blessings, from all of the people we have come across with and affected/inflicted/effected in the course of our lifetime anyways.

Psychosomatic unity is one of those words that intrigued me in the furtherance of my soul-study. It talks about the truth that we cannot evade: that we are made up of both physical body and soul. But between our two (2) major components it must be the soul that we must take care of very, very importantly because it is what does not die. It is what is eventually going to suffer or be rewarded in our judgment day, when we are to meet our Ultimate Judge eventually. We must remember that in the end we all have the same destiny – face God.

The throng of people, not to mention those who felt strongly for the death of Cory and cried silently in their homes or wherever, is the result of what the authorities call “quantum physics”. Both the quantity and quality of what we give is given us back in return. And more – for Jesus promised us: “I will give you all these and more”. “What you sow, you reap.” It is considered by others as part of the law of karma, for, if in objects “the same poles repel” applies, in people “like attracts like” works.

Discontent led me to go in depth, in my attempt to dissect the anatomy of human friendships/relationships. I thought of the broken ones. And then I finally realized that maybe what glued them in their so-called friendships then, was not Love after all.

“Only God is faithful.” The common denominator for every friendship/relationship must be God, for He is Love. Apart from Him, any friendship/relationship is either superficial or clinging (remember the pathology of love yet?), thus unhealthy. And anything unhealthy is unsatisfying, confusing, tiring, demanding or depleting, and sickening. Happiness is never, and never will be, sustained.

“The same poles repel.” If you and I are united not by Love, but by some personal motive – power, fame, or fortune (PFF) factor – our ending is to one day be separated. Only love cements a relationship and produces a BFF (best friends forever) factor.

In the PFF factor, people of the same kind are joined together first. In the course of time, however, one will override the other because it is difficult to maintain loyalty or faithfulness. They become so focused on their personal motives or gains thus, without their knowing it they become mere objects. So they keep using one another. Their motto becomes: “you scratch my back; I’ll scratch yours.” They are no longer humans. Only humans are created in the image and likeness of God. And it is in our physical state alone where we can change our destiny. For when we die our time for change is ended.

Life is meant for friendships and service. Apart from these there is no guaranteed sense of fulfillment or satisfaction. Palagi na lang may hahanapin ang puso mo because your heart is the heart of your soul and vice versa. At hinding-hindi mo matatakasan ang katotohanang ‘yan. Fr. Rod sent me this food for thought one time: “you can close your eyes to the things that you do not like to see; but you cannot close your heart to the things that you do not like to feel.” Cory’s assurance to the grieving heart of her personal physician was: “don’t worry. I have lived a full life…”

As I say goodbye for this issue I would like to pose the same question for you, beloved friends, as you think and contemplate: “are you living (and enjoying!) a full life na ba?”

Don’t worry though, nothing is late in Love. God is ever very forgiving. That is the reason why nobody has the right to condemn anybody because we do not know for certain what goes on inside the heart of every individual, and also because we do not know God’s plans for each one of us. God works on each of us differently, so we have to accept and adjust, as brothers and sisters, in our trust in God and as we wait for the completion of His plans.

My love to every one! God bless us always. See you sometime again, dearest friends.

MYSTICS

My third son (who is my original soul-mate) surprised me with a vacation trip to and from his place allegedly for a breather. It was a very fruitful vacation as we went bookstore-hopping and I got to read quality books to the desires of my heart. I love his pad, too – modest but very comforting. Thank you, baby boy pogi!

When this same son of mine discovered in the internet what names stand for, I requested for this new name (Eunice Ji) to be inquired about. My heart was full of gladness in reading the description that came along with the name. One of those that brought me joy was that it meant a “mystic” daw. For quite a time now my sister-in-law – and BFF – has been suggesting I disclose here the reason for coming up with this particular pen name. I did not so much pay attention to complying with her suggestion because I saw no need for it.

But maybe it’s about time I tell you where exactly the pen name came from because I had to have a jump off point to this issue’s topic. My pen name came shortly after my transformation, I personally call my “rebirth”. Eunice is a modification of the biblical word “eunuch” (now you finally understand why I am pushing for you to attain androgyny – brain balance); while Ji stands for Jesus and i.

MYSTIC – I have to particularly pick this topic for this issue because my personal observation is that, whenever people sense they have something they feel inside, which they translate as special something that sets them apart from the rest, they call themselves “mystics”, and worse, they cash in on their gift of being a supposed mystic. It seems to me like people’s motive is always about money.

Last year when my youngest son and I were unable to attend a particular Sunday Mass, he opened our TV set to at least hear one. He was able to tune up to a sermon of a charismatic leader whose topic was focused on financial gains. After hearing a few words from him so I can balance both sides of my brain in order to give him justice, we usually refer to as benefit of the doubt, I instructed my son to switch channel.

A few weeks after that, when my third son called, we talked about our disheartening observation where every little bit is done for money. Damo la nga pasangil an ginhihimo just to entice people and have money. It is even more annoying and disgusting when people use their claimed leverage, spiritual or mysticism, to gain money. Nagpapakasayon san pagkamal sin salapi. These unscrupulous people should be ashamed of Major Marcelino of PDEA (PDEA VS. DOJ – Alabang Boys’ case) when he said to have always reminded his family members na “matuto’ng mamuhay ng patas palagi.”

Yes, there is so much to be proud and happy about being a mystic. But it is and will never be a reason for making money. Money and God do not combine. We can only embrace one and subordinate the other, as we are both good and evil. If someone considers him/herself a mystic, then it is all the more reason for him/her not to make/collect money out of his/her being one. To be a mystic is to forever be thankful to God for His given grace, for “many are called but few are chosen.”

Fr. Dubay said in EWTN, a mystic is somebody who is head over heels in love with God. Sugad la siton kasimple an karuyag sidngon san termino nga mystic! Pero, OO gad lugod, makuri iton abuton. Labi na gud para sadto nga mga tawo nga maiha na nga waray madisiplina an ira kalugaringon. Formed habits are indeed very, very difficult to break. And we need to be broken, and sometimes crushed, in order to be whole again.

Our bad habits disoriented us, thereby keeping us away from the Truth, so we became prodigal children of God. It takes so much effort, energy, and unceasing prayers. It takes so much will. Kon hubog ka na uraura san imo kalibutanon nga kinabuhi, makukurian ka uraura pagbag-o. Pero if you are willing to hurdle the rough course to freedom for your own sake (and the people you profess you allegedly love), you will definitely change.

To take up our cross is to be willing to sacrifice. There is death in sacrifice but the death is temporary. It will take so much courage if we are to sacrifice. And if we consider ourselves people of God, then we are a people of courage. Jesus reminded us to “take up our cross and follow Him because nobody goes to the Father without Him; and that He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.” This is the reason why the effecting change or transformation is very, very rewarding. I can assure you that.

Be so in love with God. He is the best. Nothing comes close. But when you are finally changed by His grace, don’t change na. I mean, never backslide to where you came from. Stay the course. Keep the Faith. Only He knows what is best for you. Don’t capitalize on what He gave you and made of you. Ug labi na gud nga ayaw intawon iton, nga grasya nga ginhatag sa imo san Ginoo, paghimua nga kapital o puhunan para ka magka-kwarta. The more that you attain Wisdom, the more that you have to be humble. Be like the bamboo. The more that it grows taller, the more that it bends (Confucius?). Humility is everything.

Love you, friends! God bless all of us. Let’s keep praying for one another. In God there is always Hope.