Recalled to report in our mother unit and still waiting yet for our new assignment, we have plenty of time to catch up on each other's lives. It is there that i get to observe me better and assess my growth, as i am not busy doing important tasks anymore.
How far have i gone! Where before i was affected with a slightest smirk and/or indifference of a supposed friend, now i couldn't care less. Perfectly understanding that people see us according to how they are, helped me lot. It saved me from heartbreaks because as an empath i am quite emotional. And it would normally take me time to get over emotional distress. i needed self processing to get over indifferent people every time.
This new strength inspires me more to go even further until the furthest that i can be. I realized i don't need anybody to accompany me in this journey because i may just be the only one who understands me with certainty. To continue to hope for a company might just derail my exact purpose of being here, in this lifetime. The important thing is, i am happy to travel my journey.
To be raised in a family who is not really mine, and to have not even laid eyes on my biological parents; to be ghosted and rejected by many; to not realize my wants and dreams of being somebody; and most especially, the failure to be with "the one" somebody, are actually all blessings-in-disguise that i must be very thankful about. Had life been easy for me, i would have failed finding and appreciating me. Thank You, God, for the gift of understanding!
Now i await for the furtherance of my unique journey. But unlike before, i am patiently waiting light-heartedly and in perfect joy, knowing completely well what i am here for, without pain nor regrets and wishes anymore. To be simply me already completes me. I live in peace and peace i shall give. I will contribute as willingly as i could as i live in balance.
Next year i am mandated to retire from my government service at my age of 65. And i seem unable to wait even this early because then, i would be able to serve my brethren, my fellow human beings, my way, but according to their uniqueness as well.
Until then.😘
"Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking forward at the same direction."
