If you were able to read the last of what i wrote, this is a follow up to it. If you haven't, may i suggest you find a way to read it, but only if it arouses your interest. It is neither an imposition nor a pre-requisite anyways. It is merely to provide for an overall picture of understanding.
So the meeting materialized despite my initial opposition because of my personal emphatic feeling towards the subject. In a democratic environment majority always rules. While personally i was set free of my prison (untold anger), and had to thank God for it, i prayerfully hoped for the subject to finally wake up to her reality and inch by inch decide to come out of her own prison as well in order to be released and find fulfillment. The choice is upon her. Not with anybody else. It's her life, not ours nor yours.
Although as part of my initial reaction when the meeting was just set, i thought of keeping mum during the proceedings as i saw no valid reason for saying my piece. The truth to the matter is, all the issues that were supposedly raised by the "alleged complainant" were illogical and were completely non-issue office-wise. But i was forced, however, to talk/comment towards the end kay waray man gud intawon niya lung-i an amon labaw nga diri ak payaknon kay ako man gud an iya katuyuanan in the first place. Ug tungod kay nakita man liwat san amon labaw nga diri man gud matutunghan kon diri mapatungyuan an tag-reklamo, magyayakan gud ak basi la mahuman an amon harampang (miting). Mao ini an mga panahon nga akon kunta ginlilikyan (the first time i walked out. This is actually the second time of the test.), samtang pwede ko malikayan, kay diri ko unta karuyag makasakit sa akon igkasitawo, but i must, tungod kay narespeto ak san amon labaw.
My prelude consisted of a review of the validity of my initial assessment in reaction to the complaints. But that because i also had to consider seriously that human being is both a rational and emotional creation i had to finally change my opinion. This is where i have to emphasize a lesson: that when a person's emotional side is taking over and wrecking havoc in his/her rational side nawawara an balanse siton nga tawo. Iton gud an dapat maintindihan san ngatanan sa aton. Sa pilosopiya san mga Griyego, utruhon ko, nga KNOW THYSELF o KILAL-A AN IMO KALUGARINGON, dapat maaram an kada tagsa sa aton nga ngatanan gud kit, nga normal an panhunahuna san katawo naton, ginhimo san aton Makagarahum nga perpekto an balanse. We were created in perfect balance. That it is when we have lost our balance, friends, that our life becomes difficult. And undoubtedly, to live a difficult life is to be a difficult person. That when it comes to a point where the difficulty seems unbearable, we unconsciously throw our weight around thus, making other people's lives (especially those in our immediate surroundings) difficult as well. However, maski nano pa kahalaba san pisi san pasensya mayda gud an ngatanan tubtuban. Pag ginbalik na sa aton an aton ginpaabat nga kakurian sini nga mga tawo sa aton palibot, nalalangot kit, nabibido, nasisina, o nauuba. Ngatanan na la pe-personalon ta. I have mentioned this in a not so long ago issue of our paper. Ug dugngan ko: We become paranoid and prejudiced over other people, so we put meaning to every action and every word we see or hear. Naghihinimo kit multo (unfounded biases) nga kita la liwat an mahahadlok.
As for me, yes, i temporarily lost my balance consciously in ventilating my anger in that particular afternoon when i forcibly "opened my heart" kay kinahanglan ko anay asahan an diri kunta angay asahan, para la maipakita ko sa iya an epekto san akon mga ginhilom nga mga kabiduan kay diri ko karuyag magbinata-bata (irrational). Yana padayon an akon pag-ampo sin pagpasaylo. Apisar nga maaram ak nga makukurian gud ak, magpapadayon an akon paglaum. Everything is a process to undergo. Sumala san mga naglabay ko na nga mga kasakit ug diri maupay nga eksperyensya, this, too, will come to pass. Kaupod la an ngatanan san siring pa san akon nabasahan nga: "sometimes we have to muddle the present in order to better the future." Every little or big thing that happens in our life is in line of our duty to God and our brethren.
See you, friends, when i see you again!
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